How easy is it to let go, really?

I think the hardest part is the realisation that you need to let go.

I didn't post a blog yesterday! It's the first day I've missed since I started blogging here in February. I was actually too distracted by relaxing to remember to write something. So if anyone is reading who is used to me posting something every day, my apologies!

But back to my original subject - I made a realisation today. I want to let go. I don't want to be the girl who can't forget. I don't want anything to take over my life while I'm trying to get on with it. I don't even want to be an advocate for cancer-related subjects - bowel cancer, counselling, talking about what life is like when you're trying to get over it. I just want to do the latter for myself.

So I need to do a bit of a cleanse, for starters. I'd already decided to unfollow anyone on Facebook who regularly posts pointless pictures about cancer - by pointless I mean not the charity ones asking for donations, but the "share this if you thin cancer sucks" type things. Obviously we all do. I can't be doing with the reminders anymore, it's going to drive me fucking crazy. So there's that. No reminders on Facebook, no trying to do any kind of fundraising events (tried that twice, my brain didn't appreciate it. I'm not against trying to make money for charity, obviously.) Enough.

And then what? It's all very well saying you want to get over something and forget about it, but how do you actually go about it? Try to cram life full of other stuff? Change negative thoughts into positive thoughts? Be mindful? Probably all of the above and more besides. It ain't easy stuff, but what is?